I hardly ever make decisions based on what I think will be most healthy for me. No decision I make ever affects only me, so I always worry about the impact on others. This leaves me making decisions based on the well being of others and not myself. It's not good for me, and it's something I need to work on. Yesterday I made a big decision based solely on my own well being, and not that of others. I truly believe it was the healthiest decision for me.
...So why does it hurt so much?